My name is Rosie and I am a 34 year old female.
I would love to volunteer to help people and their family in their struggles with Borderline Personality Disorder. When I was diagnosed in April of 2002, at the age of 32, it was a turning point in my life. To know that there was a name for what was going on with me and know that I was not alone, made me so happy.
Afterwards, I spent a lot of time researching the disorder, mainly on the Internet. I had read about BPD before, but the little bit that I read didn't come close to covering all that I had been feeling. My mother died of cancer when I was ten years old. She had been extremely overprotective and attentive to my sisters and I. She did everything for us, including, bathing us, brushing our teeth, cleaning up behind us and so much more.
Before she died she had asked the lady that the county had hired to take care of us, to raise us. So not only did we lose our mother and have to move, we went to live with a family that were for the most part, strangers to us. We were expected to do things that we were not even allowed to do at home, like cooking and ironing and all sorts of things that they expected us to know at that age. We were abused in a variety of ways. I could go on forever, but the point that I am trying to make is that, I know what it is to experience trauma, but my suffering has taught me compassion.
I have a group on the AOL Internet already, where people e-mail me and the other members from time to time for advice. The first time I got an e-mail from someone who was suicidal, I panicked because at the time I felt the exact same way that she did, so I felt that I could not help her. I was running around my house trying to find someone, anyone to write her back, but no one seemed to care. I found myself back at my computer, wondering what to do. And then all of a sudden it came to me that I could tell her what I needed to hear. It ended up helping both of us. She wrote me back and thanked me and that filled me with so much joy. The group that I started online is called, "God's Grace Place."
My email is: GODSGROUPIE@aol.com
