My name is
Tanya Nelson, I am almost 31 years old, and live in NW Arkansas.
Bipolar
disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder nearly killed me and it did
completely destroy my first marriage to a really good man. He finally just
couldn't take it anymore. I jumped right into another marriage that bombed
and am now in my 3rd marriage and thanks to a great psychiatrist and
counseling and a deep love for my husband, so far it couldn't be better.
I have fought depression on and off since I was in the 8th grade. My dad
was bipolar and I knew I didn't want to be "crazy" like he acted
sometimes..... I thought I could control my own emotions and the highs and
lows..... WRONG!!
I
went on a really manic episode in 1997 that lasted for quite some time and
did everything I knew I shouldn't do... but I didn't care either. I was
finally ready to just kill myself and get it over with, but I figured
since I couldn't do anything else right I would foul that up too. So
instead I drug myself to my family doctor and the minute he walked in the
room I broke......... He has suffered depression himself and he
immediately got me to a psychiatrist. After several sessions and tests
they decided I was definitely Borderline Personality as well as Bipolar.
Well I sure didn't want to be labeled "crazy" so I hid it all
the best I could until one day I just decided that hey........ I'm o.k.
too I just happen to have brain disorders instead of disorders elsewhere
in my body.
I
ordered every book I could get on BP and BPD and I've studied tremendous
amounts of writings on these issues. I now take my medication religiously,
I see my therapist or psychiatrist regularly for checkups and I've gotten
my certification to teach aerobics which has probably helped as much as
anything to get out there and make myself exercise....... wow how that
helps.
nelson6@madisoncounty.net
